20 Jun 2012

Fabulous fashion school? nottt quite.

Semester 1 is over! it went by so fast, I didn't even realize that 3 months have passed since I last posted on here. Bad blogger. It's been great. Overwhelming but great. I've learnt so much in such little time and I'm really excited for next semester. Fashion school is not as fabulous as it may sound though. An average of 10 hours of work a day every day, and an empty wallet will back me up on this. So much to do, so much material and tools needed, so much money spent. It's less, far less than fabulous. And I love it.
There have been great ups and good old downs as with anything else in life. But the great thing is that I'm always surrounded by really fun people and we all help each other get through our extra long days.
We manage to have a little bit of fun during the time we spend in the studio. We play loud music and dance on the tables for 5 minutes and then its back to work for everyone, but those 5 minutes every now and then keep us going for the rest of the night.
Finals are over and now we're all just waiting on those results. Who's gonna make it to next semester and who's gonna cave under the pressure? We'll find out in 3 weeks. But in the meantime, we will all kick back and enjoy the holiday.
With fashion obviously comes a lot of drawing, so I've got a bit to share, all in different styles as I was encouraged to experiment so, as always, I'll leave you with some scribble(s). Let me know what you think!



25 Mar 2012

Scrawling 16: A month later

Its been a month since I last made a post on this blog and I think I'm gonna try to blame it on school. I've been rather busy with all the things that we need to do that I'm hardly ever at home. I must say I enjoy spending so much time in the work studio, I practically live there. When I get home I sit back on my couch and get some drawings done for the children's books I'm illustrating It's quite exciting.
The people at school are surprisingly nice, contrary to what my best friend made me think. I was under the pretenses that they would be ...well...not this nice.
However, I still miss my close friends, its different having people you love that understand you and everything about you, they understand what to say and when, and more importantly, what not to say at all.
I've gotten used to not missing people much though. I tend to block that sort of feeling out because if I don't it would probably affect the way I function. The amount of people that are away from me is beyond the acceptable limits. It's probably my fault though....I'm the one that keeps moving away. So this blog is a tribute to everyone I love. I could just keep it that way and be vague, or I could be specific, maybe something in between..

 Mum and dad, greatest people in my life, most supportive and loving parents alive. They are my everything and I aspire to be just like them. Hardworking people that built their lives literally from scratch.

 My sisters, even though they're busy and we hardly get to talk, I'm quite sure that we have a stronger connection than most sisters that live together.

My best friends, I will be vague here for privacy reasons, but they know exactly who they are. I'm so thankful to have met people like you that have always accepted me and bee by my side no matter what. If any of you are reading this, I love you to bits!

So this was just a quick heartfelt post but I'd like to leave yo with a photo of the incredible workroom which Im practically living in.

Isnt it looovely?

I'll try not to be too sporadic with my posting from now on!

Engy <3




26 Feb 2012

Scrawling 14: Silly old Scrawlings

So a couple of years ago when I was still silly and in high school, a friend of mine and myself co-wrote but never finished this very silly story. I thought it was about time I'd share it since I highly doubt we will ever finish it anyway. So yes there will be a strange and sudden transition in the writing style in the storyline in general because we were sort of just writing it without even thinking or discussing. The pattern is that I start then he wrote the next part and you can probably tell after while who wrote what. I won't even edit it or re-write anything because that's just the fun of it. To be honest I haven't even read this ever since I just remember it being silly. And ninja obsessed as we were.
So here it goes, hope it gives you a laugh like it did us.


Once upon a time I was walking in the street, the sun was scorching hot. I hear a noise, a bang, it came from above. I look up at the sky ,one hand over my forehead shading the sun, eyes squinted. I see something in a distance, it looked like it was going to fall on the floor quite far from where I was standing. I start running while looking up to see how close its gotten. Something big, very big, fell on the floor. I stop and try to catch my breath, sucking air through gritted teeth. Then I look down to the thing that just fell on the floor. It was a box. I stared and stared at it. I was not sure whether or not I should open it, let alone even pick it up. I decide to pick it up and take it home. What could be in the box that made such a loud bang? Curiousity takes over and I finally open the box. In the box, there were 2 smaller boxes next to eachother. One of them was green and labelled E, the other red and labelled J.
There was also a letter in the box.
I didnt open the letter but decided to show the box to someone else. The first person to cross my mind was a friend that goes by the name Jacob-Lee.
I go to Jacob-Lee and tell him all about the box and he says..............
     Jacob-Lee says, Wow what has the world come to? Boxes falling out of the Sky, Naww? Then continues; the green E must of of been intended for the person whos attracted to Green. That smaller box wad ment for that indivisual person. So 'she' should open it. Obviously Jacob-Lee wants the Red object, since it has his initial on it. The next step to this discovery should be opening the boxes then reading the letter. Maybe it would all reveal Its sense after these strange items have been analysed. Possibly a message sent from an annonimous figure? If so, this clever character knee exactly what they were doing. They knew curiousity would overcome our insticts. "lets find out what this shit is!" was Jacob-Lee's conclusion to his theory. xD
    While Jacob-Lee and I sat there contemplating whether or not to open the letter, we started talking about a lot of different things and one of the things we talked about was Jacob-Lee himself.
Jacob-Lee is a descendant of the great Korean martial artist, Dae-Hyun Lee. Apparently, his british mother was married to Dae-Hyun Lee's son, Chin-Ho. Chin-Ho insisted that his son be named in the normal korean way, that is, having two names. Jacob-Lee's mother wanted to name his just Jacob but Chin-Ho wanted to name him Bae-Lee, Bae was his own fathers name and Lee, his grandfathers name. They finally agreed on naming him Jacob-Lee.
Jacob-Lee has also been trained to be a martial artsist ever since he was a child. That is the main reason I thought of him first when I was confused about what to do wth the box, He tends to be quite wise. That and the fact that there was a J on one of the boxes.
We talked and talked and kind of forgot about the box. The box didnt let us forget for long though, it suddenly made that loud BANG! once again. Jacob-Lee had a look on his face that looked like he had just been struck by lightning, Im sure I had the same look on my face. It wasnt because of the bang, it was because of what happened after the bang.....
       Jacob-Lee was in complete shock not only because of the sudden noise, but also because his eyes were witnessing the most unrealistic thing hed ever seen before. The box began to melt Nd form many different shapes, shapes we never even knew existed. Until finally it came to a halt. The box took the appearence of a 19th century clock. But weirdly it was counting down in time, Nd Jacob-Lee was sure of that. There was a strange feeling which Jacob-Lee got everytime the hands on the clock shifted. Almost like the clock was trying to talk to him. All Jacob-Lee knew was something had to be done before the time was up........
Jacob-Lee and I stared at the old clock for a good 5 minutes with the occasional glance to one another, before realising that we were wasting precious time...except we didnt really know why the time was so precious..yet.
        We looked at each other for a second and Jacob-Lee nodded. We agreed that it was time. Time to open the letter. We were hoping that it would mention anything about the this ticking clock, what was going on?
Jacob-Lee hands me the letter to open and I give him a very concerned look, he nods again.
It was the moment everything would finally make sense, all in that letter....at least we hoped so.
I rip the letter open.
         So we open the letter (with a fancy letter cutter coz were posh like that :P) no ripping involved Hahah. Imprinted on the delicate piece of paper which looked very aged, was only one sentence. Which read "boxes fall, boxes get caught Nd hold smaller boxes which bring thought; so think."
This confused the Shit out of both Jacob-Lee Nd Engalitius. It was a riddle of some sort. Possibly indicating that we look further into the two smaller boxes. Maybe they held the answer to our confusion. Engalitius hated Riddels. Her fustration led into her into throwing the letter in the ground. It very sunny that day. The sun rays began to focus on the discarded letter. As Jacob-Lee leaned closer to observe the letter, he saw a map uncovering itself under the light of the sun. But the shade of his head hid a part of the map. He moved back Nd there the whole map was revealed. What Nd where was this map based on. Was it the small town which they lived in or was it some foreign lands? In small printing at the very bottom of the map was a signature. Rockalivealot IV.
What did this all mean?

(and then about exactly a year later I wrote the next part)

Jacob-lee picks up the letter and looks over to me...he'd clearly seen something I hadn't. He passes over the letter and tells me to have a closer look and then i see it "Rockalivealot IV". We both didn't have the slightest clue to where that might be. All of a sudden Jacob-Lee storms out of the house and comes back about 10 minutes later. He was holding a big old dusty brown book. I had no idea where he'd gotten that or why he even had something like that, but id gotten used to not questioning him. There'd be far too much to question. Anyway, he sets the book down o the floor and starts flipping through the pages really fast, almost like he knew what he was looking for. And apparently he did. Jacob-Lee finally decided to tell me what he was doing, actually, he showed me. In his big brown book, was the same map, with the same small printing at the bottom. I was absolutely dumbstruck, I thought all of this was some strange unrealistic thing and it was, to an extent, but this in the book suddenly made it all seem very real. There was only one small problem, the opposite page was ripped out. That made us both very, very curious.


Yep I think that was as far as we went haha and we never got back to it.  I think it was getting too complicated and we didn't really want to start thinking. Plus we really had no idea where we were going with it. It took out a good deal of our time when we should've been studying though.
Anyway, hope it gave you laugh or anything else for that matter :D

Engy <3


Scrawling 13: The latest happenings

Well heelllloo there. So I've been away from the blogosphere for a while yes but I haven't really got any ideas to write about. I don't think  can just start writing without ideas. Or maybe I can, but it's exactly like this I'm just writing and its not really going anywhere. In real life, this is the point where u get bored of my blabbering and then I try to pull you back in by saying "Hey guess what!" so you become slightly more interested and I have to think of something really quick. Vicious cycle I tell you.
I've been in Auckland for exactly a week now which is kind of unbelievable. It's really great and I've been running around town exploring very little aspect of it.
Strangely enough..I only saw the op shop right across the street on maybe my third day. You'd think I'd see it straight away. I must say there weren't exactly an hidden treasures or anything but there was a decent collection of books that they were selling for like $2. I had to grab one. I'll talk about that later when I'm done with it but I must say it's rather funny. It's not actually meant to be a comedic story, it's just the writer is very witty with his words it makes me chuckle. For all you curious cats out there, it's a book by Harlan Coben called "One False Move".
So I've managed to get my sketchbook out again and I spent a few hours drawing yet another attempt at a realistic drawing. I think I'm gonna go back to it and improve it a bit more, as you do. So let's call it a work in progress for now. Oh but before that I must express my feelings about what will happen in 2 days. What? you ask. Uni! I say. OMG UNI. I have been waiting for so long to start and it's riiiight there just around the corner. I am counting the hours. That's a little bit exaggerated but I really truly am very excited.

Riight so I'll leave you with my work in progress scribble.
And I'll try not to be too long before my next post ^.^

Engy <3


16 Feb 2012

Bring back the "scrawling": "Life is unfair"

Hello Readers, I honestly intend on writing everyday but it just takes me a little bit of time to figure out what I want to write about, until I heard this phrase which is no strange to any of our ears "life is unfair" and I got inspired.

"My life is just too difficult", "Everything is going wrong", "The universe just isn't on my side"; We hear phrases like that more than once everyday to say the least, so why is it that so many of us come to feel this way?
Yes, it's true that sometimes things really don't go as planned and it's true that matters may get more difficult than usual at times, but what does "life" have to do with it? What is this "life" that we constantly blame for anything and everything?
Everything that we do or hat happen to us in our lives has something to do with decisions and actions we've made. I think each and every one of us knows this, we all know that anything that happens is because of our selves but we choose to blame it on this so called abstract idea we call life. Why? Because we know that it won't get hurt by our blaming and that it won't talk back. It's our easy way out of facing the reality of our choices.
You might say I'm over thinking the matter and maybe I am but take a moment and roll this around in your brain; What if life had feelings? What if it feels misused and hurt by you and the way you treat it? Life isn't unfair, YOU are unfair to life.
What I'm trying to get at here is that you can't really brush things under the carpet and throw it all on life because life doesn't exist unless you make it, you build your life. Why would you tell yourself that life is breaking you down when it isn't even there? Whatever is there is whatever you put.
Think of your life as a baby, it knows nothing except what you tell it. It won't do anything unless you tell it to.
You would ask, how? You never decided to fail at school, or get a divorce, did you?.
Oh but you did.
It's the butterfly effect you see, you failed at school because you decided to, somewhere along the line as you were teaching your life baby, not to show it the way to success. You make little decisions and then that little butterfly goes on fluttering and shows you the effect of your every decision, even the smallest.
SO yes, you did.

Scribbles for your lovely thoughts

Engy <3

14 Feb 2012

Achieving perfection

Well hello there, so yeah maybe I made a promise I couldn't keep when I said I'd be back blogging a lot but what can I say? I really had nothing to blog about in mind. I do now though.

We hear the word "Perfect" one too many times don't we? Is it that this word has lost value because of the fact that it's used in many situations, describing things which can hardly be called perfect? Or is it because what you would call perfect might not be as perfect to me and vice verse? Can one really achieve perfection though?
Lets say I make a sandwich and I call it the perfect sandwich and there's nothing about it that you can fault, so you try and you don't think it's quite as perfect as I believe it is. Am I just being silly or do you just not think that that's your idea of a perfect sandwich. Or is it just NOT perfect just because we both haven't agreed?

Is the idea of perfection personal, or does it require validation from more than one party?
I've always thought that you can't actually call anything perfect because you don't exactly get to decide that. And you can hardly actually get to that point where what you think is perfect is also perfect to everyone else. So what does that even mean? Does it mean that, perfection is relative, or personal or does it not actually carry as much value as we seem to give it?
Does perfection even exist at all? Maybe it actually doesn't.

There is no perfect theory about the shape of the Earth. You will probably argue that it is because it makes perfect sense that the Earth be ellipse shaped. But isn't that exactly what they thought when they said the Earth was flat? And when they said the Earth was round?
So I guess there is a pattern here then; things will become more right and more "perfect" the more you progress. The reality is you can never call something perfect at first sight or first try, in fact, you can never really call something perfect at all, because even after you stop trying, someone else will start and they will be more right then you ever were and so on and so forth.
There won't be a perfect painting or a perfect sandwich or a perfect theory or a perfect person.

To conclude all this, you will achieve perfection when you reach infinity. And that is the paradox.

Thoughts?
I'll leave you a scribble

Engy <3

11 Feb 2012

Writing from the New Land of Zea

Last time I posted I talked about how I'll be in New Zealand when writing my next post and here I am, AT LAST!
I really am beyond excited about starting uni, I've still got a couple more weeks to go but that's nothing compared to how long I've already waited.
I must say, after living in an arab country for so long, it feels so good to be back here where I can just walk to the dairy when I need something instead of having to depend on some one for the tiniest things all the time. I can't even believe I'm going on 19 and I still can't drive. That will change soon though. You see, I lived in Saudi Arabia since I was 14, so I really never got the chance to drive since women aren't allowed to there. Politics aside though.
I feel like I need to make lists of things I need to do, or maybe I don't need to do. It's just this is very different, not only am I moving to another country, I'm moving with no parents, which hasn't been a big deal in my head at all but lets see what happens when I actually move to Auckland. I'm in Christchurch right now spending time with my sister and nieces before I go to Auckland, plus I was waiting for my brother to find an apartment. Thank god he found a great one and I'll be heading there in a week.

So this post isn't exactly interesting to any sort of crowd but I'm just talking. I'll probably be back and posting more regularly by tomorrow morning with drawings of course. I would post a drawing right now but I don't really have anything that would go with this post :D
So till tomorrow, my few readers, till tomorrow.

Engy <3